Reminiscing

I tend to think back to past events quite alot, I love photo's, I love talking about past memories and I love thinking about all the things I have done and experienced in my life so far, but recently I've been thinking about them alot more then usual - on down days memories can upset me up so much as when I think about all my friends going out without me it upsets me, i should be doing all the things they are doing, creating new memories with them like I use to be able to but after about 10 minutes the upset just turns into determination and I get hit with an adrenaline rush and it just makes me even more determine to be able to do that again and create new memories with them and all the other people in my life.

It's Valentine's day on Thursday and this is going to be somewhat different to last years, last year me and J went out for cocktails, then on to a restaurant for dinner and then to my house where I had candles and champagne waiting for us - this year I am in hospital and the plan is to watch a film and get a take-away so completely different but at least were spending it together.